A Bookworm’s Life Through the Amélie Lens.

 Time hasn't changed anything. Amélie still shelters in solitude 

          and asks herself silly questions about the world or about this town.


One of the problems with being a natural born bookworm is the delicious snare of introvertism.


I wonder sometimes if I would ever trade my elaborate imagination (that more often than not gets me into trouble) for a sociable, rational mien. But I was never one to walk the dusty brown road rather than hop onto the crocodile-shaped glitter bus that spews out marshmallow treats.

  Amélie's only refuge is the world she makes up.

        In that world, vinyls are made the same way as pancakes, 

         and the neighbour's wife, who has been in a coma for months, 

         just decided to do all her sleeping at once.

So here I find myself, at the dawn of 2017 battling monsters (most of my own making) and preparing for an impossible quest that would put even poor Frodo to shame. But mostly, just trying to keep myself from falling down the rabbit hole. When you have an overactive imagination or FPP (Fantasy Prone Personality), life can be très hard.


It can cause you to lose friends, lose love and most often than not, lose yourself. Most things just never match up to the yumminess you’re capable of manifesting in your head.

amelie6And even when things do look promising, you never trust that it’s real or going to last…so you run faster than the gingerbread man (hoping you’ll be able to convince yourself those really were coffee-stealing ninjas that needed to be slayed.) You keep yourself on the other side of a looking glass, waiting for imaginary friends that never see you. Or have their own friends…people that unlike you have both feet stably rooted in reality.


Here is where books come in to save the day.  Books (as vehicles of the fantastical) allow you to create a world from scratch. It lets you be in charge (not of the words written but the images, sounds and interpretations your mind can conjure)…without any nasty reality checks. It gives you power where reality can often render you powerless.

The outside world seems so dull 

          That Amélie prefers to dream her life until she's old enough to leave


Good books can satisfy your creative impulses and provide you with the equality of eccentric that your heart craves. It can soften the loneliness one can feel when you’re the only one wearing rainbow-hued sunglasses sprinkled with magic dust.


So like young Amélie Poulain in Le Fabuleux Destin d’Amélie Poulain, we dig through the mundane and cruel to find a land full of possibilities. A world of wonders. Where things are marvelous and people are kind: where ambiguity makes perfect sense and we need not be godmothers of the outcast or Madonnas of the unloved.

amelieAs we let our minds build alternative worlds we find fantastical versions of ourselves that can’t be trapped or broken. Lies lose their sting and life gains a music box heartbeat.

Perhaps we find a tasty jar of hope.

Imagination is the introverts drug. It keeps us alive when our bodies and minds feel the pull of institutions that threaten to turn us into societal corpses. It doesn’t have to be a curse. It’s our freedom.




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Kamalini Govender

I'm that girl that looks badass in her black boots reading Gothic Psychoanalytic Lit but really just wants to pew pew pew with someone.

18 thoughts on “A Bookworm’s Life Through the Amélie Lens.”

  1. Imagination is the introverts drug for sure. I feel you, reading your words filled with such brilliance, and yet I can feel the pain and loneliness that can come along with being so gifted, so intuitive and wiser than most others. It can be a lonely place and I’m sending big big hugs while I stay the monster right next to you.
    You are one of the most beautiful souls I have ever encountered and you are quiet special to me.
    I see you my beautiful sister.

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    1. Thank you for your special words. Having your wisdom and cyber hugs has come to mean quite a lot to me 🙂 I think loneliness can provide one with certain secrets to the universe. And after some time it lets you see who is worth your time and effort. Then you can surround yourself with the right energy. One that can contribute to growth and love. Hope you’re having a sparkling day in CA 😉

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  2. Nice. I like your idea about imagination being the introvert’s drug, and particularly the part about the creative aspect of reading where we apply all our own images and sounds to the text. Which reminds me, I really loved when there were illustrations in novels, as long as they were good ones, and even if they didn’t match my personal vision.

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    1. I love illustrations in Children’s books Eric. Somehow they’ve never stopped me from imagining my own versions of characters and settings. I love comparing how different illustrators evoke the essence of texts through art. Feel free to share any favorite book illustrators you might have! 🙂

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  3. I watched Amelie in high school, which is like forever ago, therefore ancient history, so I cannot comment there. However, I can say books save lives and so does the imagination.

    Children have wonderful imaginations until it is sometimes stomped out of them. I don’t think I realized what I had until I was much older. Like much older. Looking back, I realize how many ‘stories’ I had running through my head when I was in college! But I never wrote them down, I just remember thinking one day, “Huh. I sure do have a lot of ideas for movie scenes.”


    Twack! Twack! Twack!

    If I could only go back and hit that girl upside the head.

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    1. Lol! Silly Lani Bear! 😛 I don’t think our imaginations ever abandon us. I think maybe they start to tame as we get older unless you have a strong source of stimulation that can connect you to its childhood vibrancy. My plan with my current academic studies is to find a way to initiate children’s imaginative creativity and preserve it so that it may help them into adulthood. I know, I know…I have some cray cray ambitions. But I’m a Taurean… it’s how we roll 😉

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  4. I just have to tell you that your words are truly amazing here, and put a pin prick into my heart. And that is what this is all about this life. I am at biggest crossroad in my life at this time, and it’s going to be the biggest week of my life. But, having people like in this world can really make that difference in a time of troubles for myself. So, with this said thank you, and who ever said angels don’t exist I would have to say that not true. I feel your an angel in the sense of letting me come to this post and see your words. So thank you and hope that your life can be a good as anyone could ever ask it to be…

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    1. Hi Bryna! Well you surely are a special one…your comment is one of the sweetest things that has happened to me in a long time. Thank you from a very special place in my heart. I’m so glad you had a chance to stumble across my blog post and I am even more humbled and grateful that you took the time to share your feelings about it. Whatever you are going through in your life at the moment, I hope that you will find the strength to believe in yourself and look for hope (even in the tiniest of places). We often feel like outcasts, feel misunderstood, feel lonely…but I think there is a reason for that. I think we are supposed to take that and turn it into something creative and beautiful. And it will always lead us to others that share that creativity and beauty. Stay strong and go out there and be brave. But most of all…be yourself! Stop by again when you can 🙂


  5. This was very nice to read and a nice reminder that it is ok to give oneself over to our dreams. By the way, I am not really a divorced, stay-at-home mother of three children. I am the untouchable guardian of one prince, one wizard, and one future fairy.

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  6. Wow, I should be sleeping but I’m pleasantly intrigued by your newfound (to me ) space here. I see we share a mutual friend and I can see why you connect. There is a brilliance in the way you paint words and I am anxious to see what you do with pictures. On this topic ,I can say this…” In the silence I rediscover who I am” It’s a creatives self absorption that is a required sacrifice, to a degree, to wow the masses with what others think is a natural born ability. They fail to see the hours and hours of self doubt and dedicated hard work that goes into years of developing a natural born gift. 🙂 It is however , as you so eloquently stated., that drug that feeds our soul. There is no choice but to succumb to the calling sometimes.. Thanks for giving me the opportunity to be inspired by you in a brief visit….I look forward to reading more after I get some sleep. lol. Cheers

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    1. I am deeply flattered! And totally jealous that you get to sleep right now…I think I had about an hours worth of slumber and then my brain demanded I wake and be creative 🙂 Silences and ‘quiet time’ are some of our most important reflecting times. It’s when we can be most honest with ourselves (I feel). Thank you so much for browsing my blog and I hope we will continue to inspire each other!

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